When I turn on this desk lamp I feel like
- When I turn on this desk lamp I feel like strangling my daughter's puppy. I want to see how slowly I can apply the pressure around its neck to get the most out of its struggling
- .I bought the lamp at the estate sale of the late Aleksy Abbadonski.Rather than lighting up things it casts a shadow when I turn it on.My asphyxiation fantasies are one of a litany
- of endurance strategies I deploy against the crushing ordinariness of daily life. Some of them I cribbed from behind the damask wallpaper of a house I visit in my dreams, where
- in black crayon and primitive child-like scratchings it tells me I should keep a stiff upper lip and look on the bright side. My goth dreams always give cheerful self-help advice.
- Of course, it's rather petulant to listen to. Instead of self-help, it would be better if my dreams gave me some me-help. I don't think my dreams really need the help themselves.
- On the other hand,as someone who needed me-help,I could not very well evaluate my dreams in terms of self help. Oh. I'm reading your body language. Am I overanalyzing myself again?
- I asked, unaccustomed to thinking about what I was doing in the moment. I had just picked up this book on zen an uncle had given me, and had finally taken a bath to release myself
- from the stench that surrounded me from not bathing for a month. A nice bath, a book, light some scented candles & drink some champagne & I'd feel better. I closed my eyes & fell
- while reaching for the soap. Those little non-slip decals did little to keep me from flailing all around wildly. Finally my forehead became one with the tub. Everything went dark.
- When I came to, it was 2014. Priscilla Presley was standing over me, sobbing with joy. 2013 had only been a dream. And a bad one. Too bad Priscilla isn't smoking hot anymore.
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- 2011-08-30 17:10:01
- Finished
- 2014-01-01 03:29:15
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hamstak Jan 01 2014 @ 03:32
A good read, peeps! Happy 2014!